Pieces Of You by Ella HarperPieces Of You by Ella Harper
Published August 2014
Genres: Contemporary Romance, Dramatic Romance
Format: ARC

Note: I was granted an advanced reader's copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my rating or the content of my review.

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I don’t even know how to start this letter.
Something happened. Something terrible . . .

Lucy was always sure of one thing – her future with husband and soulmate Luke. But after eight long, heartbreaking years trying to have a baby, that future is crumbling before her eyes.
When a terrible accident puts Luke into a coma, Lucy is forced to reassess everything she thought she wanted.

Then a woman arrives with a shocking secret that will force Lucy to make the hardest decision of her life.

WARNING: Massive spoilers ahead but I will indicate when to stop reading to avoid them!

Luke and Lucy Harte are the perfect couple, what people would call “the real thing”. They have been together for 8 years and married for 5, and even their closest friends are jealous of the love they share.

Luke is incredibly romantic, head over heels in love with Lucy and wants nothing more than to give her children. However, the couple has been trying to have a baby for years but to no avail. To add to the tragedy, Luke becomes victim of a severe accident putting him into a coma and Lucy is left to pick up the pieces of her seemingly happy marriage.

My rating for this book would have been 0 Stars if such a rating would exist. The only reason why I am giving this book 2 stars is because I did appreciate the very neat writing. It was very complex, with several different points of view, both 1st and 3rd person and kept jumping from present to past with the help of flashbacks. I also liked the English charm this book exuded and fell in love – and had my heart broken – by the lovely Luke.

However, the reason I hated this book was due to the fact that is was one of the most gut-wrenching, tear-threatening and hopeless reads I’ve read in a while. I read a lot of “happy stories” and I am not afraid of reading books that are not all hearts and flowers, but this one was just too much. There was no morale, nothing to keep you hanging on to despite of all the bad that’s happening, and I’m just wondering why anyone would actually write something so horrible without an ounce of morale – without it being a lesson learned? Because all I see in this book is Lucy being torn to pieces bit by bit and there’s nothing she could have done differently to avoid it.

WARNING: Massive spoilers ahead now – stop reading!

The question that I’ve asked myself several times when I finished this book – and which still lingers on is…

Why on earth did Luke need to die? What greater good did it to? What lesson did people learn from it?
And the answer I come up with is always the same: There was simply no reason to it. It just happened. At the end of the book, the author asks a pertinent (or not really, actually) question: “What would you chose between your husband and a baby?” The thing is, Lucy obviously got neither. She couldn’t get the baby, that was for certain. And even although she understood in the end that she had been putting a lot of pressure on the couple and been too focused on the baby stuff, it wouldn’t have helped to make it better and think about other ways to have a child (like adoption) since Luke still died, and it was out of her control.

If the storyline would have been different, I don’t know, let’s say Luke gets drunk because he’s unhappy and then has an accident when he drives – it would make sense because you could say “well if only Lucy had opened her eyes sooner and focused more on her couple etc.” But in this case, there’s absolutely no one to blame, and it just happens like that. As in: here’s your shit hand of cards, deal with it.

In the end, Lucy is left with nothing – no child, no husband, not even good memories of her marriage at is was just a lie (she’s seems to want to forgive Luke in the end, which is understandable but she doesn’t even get to tell him since he dies so this is an additional weight on her chest). All she’s left with is a constant reminder of what happened in the form of her dream, that’s been snatched from her by another woman.

And some things in this book are questionable: Why were there recent messages on Luke’s phone from Stella when Stella said she hadn’t talked to him since after the night? Why couldn’t Stella – the “other” women – have had an abortion? After all, she was pictured as a career-driven doctor in training. To me this just doesn’t make sense, especially since she admitted to feeling guilty of having had sex with Luke (practically “forced him” to it – even though I know there is no such thing). Why would she willingly carry around the shame for everyone to see it? You would assume that being a doctor, she would know of abortion (I’d like to point out that whether or not this is or isn’t a good choice is irrelevant to me now).

Last but not least, while I really liked of all the characters (even though I must admit that apart from Nell’s, they were a bit superfluous) I really had issues warming up to Lucy apart from feeling extremely sympathetic to what happened to her. But how could I in the first place when the author put her in such a bad light? She met Luke after her studies, when she didn’t know exactly what do to professionally and Luke’s mom offered her a job as a florist – temporarily. Although 8 years later, she’s still working there, and has no ambition whatsoever whereas Luke is out there, working as a paramedic and saving lives. Luke is the epitome of the romantic boyfriend and gives her the most original and sought out gifts while she is not even capable of cooking and admits openly to having no ideas on what to gift her husband. Was this intentional? Did Lucy get so caught up in the baby stuff that she didn’t care about other things such as a job, hobbies, or even her own husband? In this case, I must say that Luke would have left her/cheated on her sooner because there’s nothing quirky there to me, and that’s her character trait he fell in love with.

In summary, reading this book brought me nothing but a depressing reminder of how volatile things as love, life and trust are, and that things just happen without a reason or agenda. It didn’t really bring me anything else and that’s what disappointed me. I mean The Fault In Our Stars for example is depressing as hell, but still it is marked with beauty and wise words, which make it understandable and a little easier to bear. But Pieces of You is just plain depressing and nothing but the gut-wrenching story of someone who loses everything and who will never be the same again, when there’s nothing she could have done to make it right.